I am sure a lot of you are aware that I started a video gaming magazine back in 2007. When I was getting ready to launch the site and magazine I realized that I needed a good quality image for what I wanted. I contacted Pinkuh who drew a lot of images for the PMS clan. I gave her my idea of what I was looking for and then she quoted me a price. When she sent me the sketch I was completely floored! It was exactly what I was looking for!! I paid her for her services and then told her I didnt want this image being given to anyone else to use with out my consent. I did let her know that she could keep it for her portfolio because it was just too awesome to now show to people. I then completed all my paperwork for turning my magazine into an LLC and copyrighted the Images/logos. Since then, I have had a few people ask if they could use my image and I have said no. Recently I discovered a facebook page that is using my image. I kindly sent them a private message letting them know it was copyrighted material and to please remove it. They refuse to do so. I have now placed a copyright report with facebook and am having my lawyer draft a cease and desist letter. I really do not like it when it comes to this but I am a firm believer in using your own material. If you are so void of creativity that you cannot come up with something on your own.. then talk to someone who can. You dont just go around using other peoples hard work or things they paid a lot of money to have done, with out any permission. 

This is the image I am referring too. To the people who think they can steal my shit.. be ready to be sued. I am tired of people taking things that are not theirs. If you see this image in places it should not be, please let me know. Thanks… 

There is literally 3 more days until PAX! I am so excited!! I really love gaming events because I get to see all my friends again. Its like a family reunion 3 or 4 times a year for me. I do get sad when people cant make it, but I know life is such and we cannot all afford, get time off from school or work, to go places all the time. I will miss all of you who cannot make it and cherish the time I have again with those who can. I have so much to do in the next few days! With the launch of the website I have been working on and about 8 people staying at my home for Pax weekend… I am not sure where to begin. I think tomorrow I will have to schedule everything and hopefully I dont forget something important like extra toilet paper!! See you guys on Thursday :) <3

Oh and Thanks to @dotdotrobot and @manadrake for hooking me up with the PAX pass at cost! <3 cheers to great ladies who don’t try to rip off their fellow gamer friends! All you greedy bastages can go DIAF!!! Wurd! 

Let me just start off by stating a fact. I get incredibly cranky when it is too hot! Rob says I should move to Alaska and become an Eskimo! So, I start this rant being pre disposed to the inner anger that is building inside me from being sweaty, sticky and just down right miserable.

1. Stating the Obvious: Have you ever been driving around noticed the sheer volume of vehicle owners who put the make of their car on the bumper or window? I saw 3 or 4 mustangs today who all stated the fact they were driving a mustang because of the HUGE sticker on the back of their car. I would like to tell you that we (other drivers) do not care if you drive a mustang. It is already a noticeable body type because it hasnt changed much in the last 20 years and even older models are easily recognizable. We can all tell its a mustang with out having to read it on your car in big bold print. Take it off and enjoy your car for what it is. Side note* I saw a fugly pt cruiser that has a sticker on the back that read “Got PT Cruiser?” No stupid, I am driving a mini van.. I dont have a PT cruiser and neither does the other 50 or so cars that passed you on the road.

2. Cash or Credit/Debit: I was driving home from work yesterday and I needed to stop and get gas. I pulled into Chevron and noticed this sign at the pump; what did this sign say you ask? $3.80 per gallon for CASH and $4.05 per gallon for using your credit/debit card. I was immediately angered by this sign. Gas was 3.50 last week.. now we have to pay almost 50 cents more a gallon because we want to use our credit/debit cards.. seriously?? So I went in the gas station and had to use the ATM. Paid a fee of 4 dollars and then paid $40.00 cash for my gas. Which only got me about half a tank anyways. Moral of the story, stop over charging me for shit!

3. Give me a chance to turn: I really hate it when a green turn signal lasts for about 4.5 seconds. By the time the person in front notices the light turned green, because they were too distracted reading tweets and texting while driving… about two cars get through the light and im always stuck as the next person waiting about 10 min for my turn again. 

4. Back Asswards: Remember when you took drivers ed, or got your license. Do you not remember that there are rules to the road. Not to mention the endless amounts of signs everywhere. Hey, I know… How about we implement a rule where the slower people stay in the right hand lane, and the people actually driving the speed limit go in the other lanes? Oh wait, we already have that rule.. No shit!!?? Maybe these people need to go back to drivers training.. or stop making it 10 years in-between license renewals. 

5. Greedy Greedy: If any of you payed attention when the PAX prime tickets went on sale this year, you knew they had some issues and then sold out before you knew what was going on. Today I found where all these passes went. EBAY! I need 2 passes for Pax Prime and I am unable to find any. I get if you have extra or want to sell them for the regular price; but selling them for 500 dollars on ebay makes me outraged!!!!! 

6. Can someone get this guy a brain?: What the hell is wrong with people now days. Guys asking if you shave or wax, people mooching off others for benefits, shady people, people looking out for only themselves, psycho bitches who take you to small claims court over a broken friendship, people who block you on facebook and xboxlive for no given reason. I could go on and on. This is why I keep to myself and don’t usually get close to anyone. People are rude, disgusting and just overall horrible. What happened to all the nice, kindred people who actually cared about one another and wanted to do nice things for people because it felt good? Guess they are harder to find now and on the “soon to be extinct” list.

End rant!

Work is taking over my life as usual! I have been super busy after taking the week off for E3. I really had a great time though! I got to meet a whole bunch of new people, hang out with old friends, and partake in once in a life time bed time stories by Avery! It was a blast!! I got to attend the Microsoft Showcase, a Movie Premiere and get VIP treatment to play as much Gears of War Judgment as I wanted! I also got to talk more with people in the industry and gain a bigger respect for the things I love. All of this has inspired me even more and I am now working on a few projects. One I cannot talk about yet but the other project is being Rob’s official assistant. I will be helping him along the way and making sure he stays on track with appointments and things. Basically what I normally do anyways, but officially. I am super excited and can’t wait! Right now we are sifting through all the PXA applications and seeing who is the best for each position. So, keep your pants on because we will be announcing the interns within the next week or so. Life is good and everyone is great over here! I am also wanting to move to Cali! We are planning to do that as soon as we are able to afford it and get jobs down there. I just miss my home state and the sun!.. Until next time…

Peace out yo!

This year has been quite interesting when planning for E3. First off, I was denied a badge twice! I even registered as a Student, and if you didn’t already know, I am a full time student at Full Sail for game art. Which I might add, is one of the requirements for registering as a student. It clearly says you have to be going to school for an industry related program i.e. game art or game development. I faxed in my fancy letter on the school letterhead with all of my information, and DENIED!!!! I was fortunate enough to have someone who got me a pass though. It was so nice of him to make sure that I was taken care of in that regards. So, now that the pass is acquired, its onto planning the other stages.

Hotel! HAHAHAHA We are currently looking for someone who would want to split the room with us. Its going to be $707 total for Sunday night - Thursday night. Check out is Friday at noon. Its at the Historic Mayfair and they have free shuttle to the expo and back!! Finding someone to split the cost with us has proven to be quite difficult!

Flight! another HAHAHHAHAHHA, We are going to be driving to LA. Its actually cheaper to drive than fly! So again, we are looking for anyone who wants to road trip with us. We will be arriving in LA on Sunday before check in, so anyone wanting to come with has to be ready early Sunday morning, depending on your location. I thinking $100 for gas would cover it. Just think, tickets are over 200 round trip to LA right now, you could be saving over 100 bucks by being in the car for a few hours!! lol

The other reason I am looking for someone to road trip with us, is because Rob does NOT drive. I think I will go insane if I don’t find someone else who can take the wheel for a few hours!! 

Hopefully the planning will come along because I am super stressed about it right now. Thank God for Xanex!!!

Friends for me is a weird subject. I had quite a lot of guy friends in high school and only two girl friends. The guys were great because they wanted to go snowboarding and play soccer. Girls were too .. girly for me. As I got older I really didn’t make more friends. I have a couple of women who I still remember and were kindred spirits! There was my long time friend Kathleen who I met when i was in the army. Her husband was my ex’s room mate in the barracks and we hung out a lot!! Then there was my good friend Amber who lived next door to me in Colorado, but because of her sons medical condition, they had to move to a place with lower elevation. After that I tried to make more friends but it was just too time consuming and draining for me to tell my entire life story to someone who was just going to be moving away soon anyways. 

When I got into gaming I realized that I could have friends anywhere and still stay in contact with them no matter what. This was cool but at the same time its not someone who you can go grab coffee with. I was virtually alone all the time because my ex was military and always gone to Iraq. I enjoyed my gamer friends but I always missed that personal contact you have with friends. 

Video gaming events are great for me because I can see these friends and its like we were never apart. We all click like we just talked yesterday even though its been a few months due to real life situations. Right now I am at a time in my life where I actually NEED to have friends close by and again I am going through the same situation. People are leaving/moving or maybe not really as friendly as I might have thought. 

With that being said, I am sitting here staring at my wedding guest list.. We are only inviting 100 people. I thought this was going to be a crazy number because of all the people we know and how would we ever choose who to invite from our gamer family… I have come to realize people who I thought would definitely be there for me are not; people I didn’t even know cared, are being super supportive and caring. I am having to re evaluate my entire guest list. 

I guess what I am trying to say is… I have had a really hard time making friends in my life. The ones I have made I cherish and are from the gaming world. However, some of these friends that I thought meant the world to me do NOT want to be a brides maid and want me to send their invitation to their work?? While others haven’t even congratulated me on the engagement. 

I try not to let these things bother me.. But they do. Over the next two months I really have to crack down on this guest list and figure out who I really want at my celebration. I have to prepare myself for people saying no.

This is how my day goes…

4:00am The alarm goes off and I press snooze!

4:05am The alarm goes off again and I press snooze!

Repeat a few times!

4:30am Get ready for work.

5:00am start driving to work…

6:00am/6:30am Arrive at work.

6:00am/6:30am to 2:30pm/3:00pm WORK!!!

2:30pm/3:00pm Start driving home from work!

4:30pm/5:30pm get home.

At this point I am exhausted and want to take a nap. I can’t though because the kids home from school and I have to make sure they don’t start hanging the pets from the ceiling fan or beating the crap out of each other. I try to get some homework in but that hasn’t really been happening lately. I usually watch a few tv shows on Hulu or Netflix with Rob and then at 10:00pm It is time for me to go to bed. However, I can’t just shut off like that. I have to lay in bed and listen to law and order for a few hours before my brain finally shuts off. Then I am up again 3 to 4 hours later and lather.. rinse.. repeat.

When it comes to the weekends I sleep like a bear ready to go into hibernation. I try to get 25 hours of homework done in about 7 and then try to spend some time with my family before I have to go back to work. The boys usually go with their father on saturdays so I get the majority of the day to do homework in peace. Sundays however are for cleaning and getting everything ready again for the next week. 

Now take all that and pile it on top of other peoples drama and bull shit, friends being retarded, people you thought were your friends being passive aggressive and down right rude. More drama and then more drama… and lies… ohh the pants that are on fire this week!!! I hope they burn your ass, third degree style. 

On a happy note, Wedding plans are going accordingly. We are booking the venue in two months and sending out save the dates. We are only going to keep it moderately low key and limited to 100 people. Save the dates will be going out after e3 though and I am totally excited!! A ton of things to plan and get ready, but I am up for that challenge. I’ll blog more on that later..

I haven’t really been able to game because a few months ago (pre employment) I ended up selling my xbox’s to pay some bills… Now I have a tv with no xbox lol. I have been fiddling around with some Facebook games here and there, but nothing too serious. 

I do have something in the works as far as the gaming industry goes and it will be going live shortly. I am trying to cram that into my already hectic schedule!! If only there were more hours in a day. Maybe if i only required 4 hours of sleep I would be sitting pretty. But, unfortunately I think my body requires a full 8 to even function. I already have to drink about 20 gallons of coffee to even keep my eyes open at work! 

Oh yeah, I also have to throw in exercise in there somewhere! I plan on walking down the Isle a whole-lot-less than what I am now! 

and that is my word vomit for the day!!

I have been officially working for more than two months now. My gaming has gone down the shitter!! I haven’t been able to play much of anything at all since I started my job. Mostly because I am exhausted by the time I get home. I do miss the days of being able to hang at home with my kids and play games. Maybe in the near future I can schedule some time to play.